the blue sweep of that lyric, calling everything back—
a crystalline pitch-shift, rich and rapid
in the cobalt gut of the sky, and you hanging onto it,
perfect. every meadow a mythic green, lit neon
by late-August condensate, and the Oakland blocks vacant
with untenable speed. when you held me,
I flattened into panic, knowing the moment
from before language, seeing, as if through roiled water,
into the black glass of the canal, through which
I would have jumped, had you asked, like an idiot dog
through a paneless French door, or like the synthesizer now whining
that walk through your indifferent city, our goodbye
without touching, your return to the woman
who didn’t know my name. in my room,
blurring the stoplights, a radio-static rain.
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Clare Flanagan is a Brooklyn-based poet, music writer, and night owl. Raised in Minnesota, she recently relocated from San Francisco to New York City, where she is a Wiley Birkhofer fellow at NYU. Her poems and reviews are published or forthcoming in Poetry Online, the McNeese Review, and Treble Zine. In her free time, she enjoys reading, long-distance running, and listening to Charli XCX.