I should start with how I met him. I had seen him around several times before I wrote this poem. I would go to this bar, sometimes, and heâd be there, standing under this swarm of discotheque lights, and he liked to get drunk by the end of the evening, but I donât judge. Anyway, there were these blots of wallpaper that if you followed along the base of the stairwell, youâd get to this red door that led out back, and you had to go through this red door if you wanted to smoke, which I did, then, sometimes. So, you really had to push down on this handle, like just punch it to get it open. I did just that, and when the door shut, there he was, standing on the other side, and I was a little embarrassed of my debut. He introduced himself, Hey, Iâm Zac, and the way he said his name was both infinite and staccato, like a feeling of love and death at the same time, and he …